Cause it’s true, I am nothing without you

28May09

HELLO, WORLD. I suck at keeping blogs, especially since I have more than one — I’ve now upped it to three because I couldn’t resist the shiny appeal of Dreamwidth, the latest and greatest version of Livejournal. (Leading the double life, hah. Just kidding.) I’m here by my lonesome in Austin prepping for what could possibly be called the worst test I’ll ever take in my life…at least until I get into medical school. Then I’d have USMLE, etc. etc. I have only had one week of summer. Life sucks.

It also seems that I’ve been replaced at good ol’ uBookedMe since I can’t even access the FTP server, and books have been added to the catalog without my knowledge. Sadface. I’ll show them — if you need books for next or any following semesters, go to uBookedMe.com first to see if the book you need is available, order, and put my name 8256 in the promotion code box for free shipping. I’LL STILL HAVE A PRESENCE!! Maybe I should make an awesomeeee new layout to show that they can’t have it. Hehehh.

No one is here to keep me company…someone come visit me! I’m melting from boredom.

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Tags: mcat, medicine, summer, ubookedme

Standing in the light of your halo, I got my angel now

20Mar09

It seems like no one updates their blogs anymore Is anyone still out there?!

I’ve been feeling increasingly burned out as this semester progresses. I guess the amount of stuff I end up piling on myself has finally reached a breaking point, and I’ve come to a fork in the road — do I endure, or do I give up? I haven’t felt any motivation to keep studying or keep working, which I suppose bodes ill for the career path I’ve chosen. I also suppose this is odd because I was 4 for 5 in getting A’s on my first round of tests…maybe I’ve come to the point where I don’t need to study anymore? (If only.) But arrrrrrrrgh Organic Chemistry next week a;kljsfd;da. I swear I hate that class worse than Physics.

I’ve also felt like I’ve wasted my Spring Break away. I haven’t seen anyone this whole entire week, mostly because they’re either vacationing, out-of-state, or I don’t feel comfortable enough anymore to call them and ask to hang out, which I guess only highlights how far we’ve gone our separate ways since high school. DEPRESSING. So this break, I’ve managed to bum around all day watching Asian dramas. Hahhh. In doing so, I’ve added another actor to my growing list of favorite Asian actors: Lee Min Ho. Fangirl with me?

ALSO — I feel the need to ask this: WHY ARE KOREAN GUYS SO PRETTY? Honestly. Case and point, the rest of Min Ho’s co-stars:

Wtf, they’re all prettier than the average girl. What’s up with that.

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Tags: asian actors, personal woes, school

Give me the green light

11Nov08

Life has been racing past me at the speed of light, and sometimes I feel like I can’t keep up. The one thing I’m most disappointed in myself is my schoolwork; although I’m not doing too badly when compared to most peoples’ standards, I’m doing horribly compared to my own standards. I probably over-exaggerate most of the time, but I see my friends doing how I’d like to be doing — I think that’s one of the pressures of surrounding yourself with Asian friends. I end up procrastinating because I feel like I can never keep up. In fact, I’m supposed to be writing an APA research paper draft right now due tomorrow, but since it’s only a draft, I tell myself it’s okay if I slack off…except for the fact that I can’t. 

Things are back to “normal,” per say. Although I’m taking everything one step at a time, I’ll never forget what I learned about myself during that time. I guess the biggest lessons in life are learned the hard way. If anything, I don’t regret feeling like utter crap that one week — what came out of it I’ll always remember: Stop waiting around for someone to dote on you. Be more independent, learn how to do things without anyone else with you. Even as a couple, you are two separate people. Never compromise to the point where you don’t recognize yourself anymore. I also learned the people I could turn to, the people who would always be there for me (or at least try). I re-established relationships with other people and connected to others with whom I didn’t really converse with before.

I’m also left wondering when anniversaries are now. I’m an overly sentimental person, but does it just pick up where we left off, or do we just start over? It’s a stupid thing to think about, but if nothing ever happened, today would’ve been another month in this whole long ordeal.

But anyways, enough emo-ing. It’s time to be happy and finish this paper! My reward at the end of the week: a concert headlined by Panic! At the Disco featuring The Cab, The Plain White T’s, and Dashboard Confessional. In reality, the only band I’m going to the concert for is Dashboard Confessional and maybe The Cab. AHH I’m so excitedddd…!

Also, in the midst of my procrastination, I found this, which was a little bit freaky. It’s even complete with creepy music!

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Tags: epiphanies, friends, music, personal woes, school

28Oct08

I finally figured out what’s wrong — it’s been a week. When I realize that, I’m not so okay anymore.

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Interlude

28Oct08

It’s 12:07 AM: I’m thinking too much again. I think it’s because I’m stuck in my room by myself with only a Genetics book and my notebook, with a roommate who’s chatting on the phone. I’m not in the mood for studying; I miss us…I miss you. Not sure what spurred this train of thought…perhaps it’s because when I didn’t want to go to the library or be in my room to study, I could always go to yours.

Ugnhhrnf. But…I’d still call today a success though, and that’s what makes me happy.

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